So, lately the reality of life has kind of hit me in the face. It's weird, this thing we call growing up. As a little kid, you always look forward to when you grow up, and you get it into your head that it's this great thing that happens, indeed it is, yet there are struggles you must face going through it. I can't even begin to tell you how stinkin excited I am about going to OE next year, yet it's a bittersweet move in my life. It's tough to think about all the things in life I am going to be leaving behind. Many friends I know I will never see again, and things that have been such a part of my life, that I will no longer be involved with. It's tough.
Early this morning a group from the youth at our church left on a missions trip, and I'm so excited for them.. God's going to do great things, but it's been extremely hard for me to deal with, as this is the first time in 3 years that I will not be joining them. I was really hoping to go, but I think it was more for the one last bonding experience more so than it was actually being called to go. Lately I've been looking at all my relationships with those around me, and I've seen some change drastically. Some relationships that I've had have started to fade... not completely, but enough to miss them terribly. I almost wonder if that was one of the reasons God hadn't called me to missions this year. Maybe I needed to let some friendships fade in order to be able o say goodbye. Saying goodbye is one of the hardest things I will have to go through in my life.. sounds funny, but it's extremely hard for me...
Anyways, I wanted to thank all of you for your friendship and all that it has meant to me. I will miss you all!
